Wednesday, July 30, 2014

I feel like...

...I haven't blogged in awhile. Truth! 

Things have been a little like whoa lately. When you seem to *think* you have a handle on life it wants to remind you that perhaps it's time for a new path, that is for sure. So I have been getting use to some new ideas and ways of thought recently. I know, vague. How annoying. I just hate when people do that and now I'm doing so! With time, I hope to share more about that. Some of you might be excited. Others, not so much. Ha-ha there I go again, being coy n' shit. OK. I'll stop. 

I was discussing my travels with a friend the other day and recalled this funny story while visiting the great state of Texas. I wasn't sure if it ever made it on the long lost Tumblr blog but its worth a share if I did/didn't. Here goes...

Red Box Rush

You know that time of night...around 9pm when Red Box charges you an extra $1 if you haven't returned your movie? It's called Red Box Rush...because I just named it that. Might even be more than one whole dollar these days I am not sure as I haven't been to one in a hot minute. Which is what this lady needed extra of. (LOL) However, I was taking a walk to return my Red Box movie not really carrying if I made it there by 9 or not. Thank goodness because some rachet person was exploring their video options at 8:58. Here come's 8:59 and some little red hum dinger of a car whizzes on up and this girl races out of her car road runner style and basically tells rachet girl that she MUST return her movie right now because she needs to go to the hospital because her sister is in labor. So wait. Rewind. You thought it was absolutely necessary to stop at Red Box so you weren't charged an extra $1 before going to the hospital of which you are so adamant you must get to because your sister is in know what sweetie just hand me the movie. You the hospital. Take some deep breathes and stay away from your sister because you're getting all worked up about returning your $1 Red Box movie surely is not going to assist her. Believe me, I've been at two births and unless you have some sort of out of body experience and can take the pain away from said mother in labor you just better sit back and smile and act like you're as relaxed as watching Full House on a Saturday afternoon with no place to go...not even the Red Box. There we have it, Red Box Rush. Moral of the story? If you need to make it to the HOSPITAL forget about Red Box till the next know maybe after you hold that tiny little miracle of life that $1 might not seem thaaaat important. I dunno though I guess, everyone is different? >_< But, seriously. I thank you for that experience. Hopefully someday I'll be able to make better choices from watching you. Rolf. Ok. Enough. Oh! You're probably wondering...and I might, she did not get to return her movie. 

I know I had mentioned starting an Etsy store so that I could share my vintage finds with all of you but I actually think it's something I am going to put on the back-burner for now. Even my shop currently. As much as I enjoy it I've been continuously moving towards simplifying life and trying to juggle two jobs (thank goodness I woke up and stopped doing 5 jobs as of late last year/early this year!) plus the other demands of life doesn't leave much time to actually enjoy life which I have been trying to do better at understanding what that means. It's easy to get caught up in the go go go, especially as it's the main driving mentality here in America. If you're not "busy" you're not "succeeding" or fully getting what life has to offer. I've been trying to go against that standard and appreciate doing less. Enjoying the simple things. Walks with Ryner through a field of flowers. I saw a quote once "Stop glorifying busy." So perfect. It's always everyone's answer when you ask how they are. What happened to a real answer. What happened to being authentic? What happened to even knowing what that means!? So that's my goal as it has been most of 2014. Simplify. Be more Authentic. To myself. To others. It's strange this journey of life, the conclusions it leads us to whilst unfolding us onto a completely new and unthinkable path. One that's even more beautiful than we can imagine. That's how I like to think about life. A journey. Full of lessons. With no particular destination. Other than complete happiness. There's up's. There's downs. Each one holds something for us, we just have to learn to listen to what that is. Love and compassion. For everyone and everything. 

I know...this is a blog from someone in "porn." Strange how people allow words to define themselves and others. I am here to go against that grain. This is me. I won't ever be afraid of hiding that. It's only by others perceptions do we hold back our complete selves for lack of ability to see beyond one's nose. In closing of this topic I'll share a quote from one of my favorites, Leo Tolstoy. 

"Freethinkers are those who are willing to use their minds without prejudice and without fearing to understand things that clash with their own customs, privileges, beliefs. Their state of mind is not common but it is essential for right thinking; where it is absent discussion is apt to become worse than useless." -Leo Tolstoy

I love my job. I love what I do. I love all of you! I love who I am. I carry no shame around anything I have experienced in this life. Are you free? 

Love & light, 

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