Just a little update to follow up on this original post HERE. After today I will be officially on another "break." I intend on coming back sometime the beginning of next year. My clip stores have 4-5 more updates in them for the next 4-5 weeks. Down to once a week on Thursdays in FETISH and staying the same at once a week on Fridays in VANILLA. Our TWIN store will be seeing some updates as well! Then there will not be any more "new" updates for a bit. Last ones will be around mid/late October. I will be removing twitter & my e-mail from my phone and I hope to check in once a week when I log into my computer. Sounds so archaic I know! There is a vacation set up on my work e-mail already and some of you may have already received that automated response. When I do return, I expect to perhaps do something like 3 months on and 3 months off. So within those three months I will accept CUSTOM VIDEOS and update and queue my store(s) for while I am gone OR it's possible I only accept a limited amount of custom requests and work on those each week. Those are just a couple of thoughts I have been thinking about as I try and find balance in this new world of mine. I have had some offers at $500 to create videos anyways while I am away. Yes, I will accept those and only those. How can I resist that...I put it away for weeBrookeMarie. So yes, if you are in that realm of offering such then contact me and I'll respond as soon as I can. Other than that my time will be solely focused on WBM. Because it's what every baby and new Mom truly deserves. Thank you all so much for your support during this time. I am forever grateful!
and my first thought was "It's just hard. Everything about it is hard." Then I decided to do some further thinking [and let's not gang up on Brad (ha-ha!) because this is something I have been contemplating ever since I returned in July]...I'm just not ready to be back. I love my job, but I can't give it my all right now. Someone else needs my all...and as that someone else grows more independent; I'll have the time & energy to return to work. It's a really tough decision to make but I've been thinking about it straight for two months now. When will I return? I don't know. Maybe in October...Maybe January 2016...Maybe next Spring. I am just going to take it month by month. Perhaps I will pop in every now and then to say hi or create a few customs but it's unlikely honestly. I thought maybe I could just work minimally but it's just still there on my brain 24/7. It's not easy, but I know everything will work out. I'll be taken care of, the Universe will provide. I'll have everything I need while I make sure #weeBrookeMarie has everything he/she needs.
Becoming a Mom for the first time is thee hardest thing I have ever done. I think when #weeBrookeMarie is a little older I'll be able to work more with ease. I have a very "attachment style" of parenting (look it up if you're curious) but in short, I co-sleep with my baby, I exclusively breastfeed, I wear my baby, I don't use the cry-it out method, etc. This certainly is not the start of a discussion or parent-war on styles of parenting but it's what I choose to do and it.is.exhasusting. I mean...lets step back for a moment here. For the past 14 months I have solely grown a human being with my body. I mean that has to take some sort of physical energy right...and let's not even begin with the mental energy. I see why places in Europe award/give parents leaves (years in some cases!) of absence with pay (and in turn have much lower crime rates). Becoming a parent is some hard shit. They as a society recognize the huge life shift and celestial importance of giving birth and raising a human being. These years are the building blocks and I want to make sure those blocks are secure, happy, and solidified with so much love. Including my own blocks...of sanity. Ha-ha!
I will be finishing up the few customs I have (twin and solo). I will not be accepting any more unless it's fetish related. I will be completely done within a week. So if you have something, get it to me asap! My stores will stay open. I do intend on returning at some point, I just honestly don't know when. I won't be around twitter much. I'll try to pop in and say hi once in awhile or update if I am coming back to work for a short period of time.
So there you have it. The end of an era. Just kidding. I hope to return in the future. For now...it's all about #weeBrookeMarie.
Love you guys & gals. You've made my world a much better place and I hope I've done the same for you!